i continue to lift it up,
it continues to weigh me down.
i see something that's within
my grasp, but i can't let go
of something that is past
im tense & confused about
why & how
tell me how im suppose to grow
when i can't separate my then from now

i am.

i am everything
that i want to be.
my world is shaped around
everything i love.
my peace of mind is found
when i let go of anything
that clouds me.
or shades me.
i am human.
i deserve to get what
i am willing to give.
i am me.
i am everything i want to be.

revealed.

i was so focused on something, while praying for another.
God seen me struggling to overcome certain areas in my life. He understood my heart. And although I was blinded, i still had my faith. God broke me down to build me up. i prayed to understand him, i prayed to understand myself. & although i'm not perfect... the love that i have for myself is unconditional, because God has revealed himself in me.

cloud eight.

i was high up in the sky, sitting on top of a cloud.
i overlooked anything that could a bring me down.
the sun was near, but not too close.
the breeze was speaking to me in the sweetest voice.
as i opened my eyes, i happened to look down.
my spirit was interrupted by a fallen cloud.
my infatuation with falling began to cloud my mind
how could i find my happy place, but not my peace of mind?
how could my world be so easily shifted?
how could i be so high up, but not lifted?

word.

for their own convenience;
people will lie & misguide you...
but God's will is what will guide you.
your heart & your soul is your motivation.
the mind & thoughts of the world will find you & if you choose to follow, you will lose you. listen to your heart & your soul. God is speaking through you.